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Urgh....I have a severe flareup occuring right now...my legs, ankles, and feet feels like the blow torch is blaring fire on my skin coupled with millions of�needle pricking my already hot skin.� I haven't had this kind of severity in months...wondering what and how this is happening....and what could have triggered this?� Was it the eggs that I had eaten 5 days ago? The sugars that I have eaten over the last 2 weeks?� The recent job loss and break-up from my boyfriend?� I feel so angry at my legs but sympathetic to them at the same time.�Did I ignore their needs and now they are rebelling back at me for my lack of care and attention to them?
I am also feeling anxious about how long will it take for my body to heal and recuperate from this flare up because I have a busy and heavy schedule at work next week and I am worried if my body can handle the physical stress of my job as a dental hygienist.� Right now I cannot congest my mind with these thoughts except to let my body rest...and lay down...and ice my hot, hot, red legs.� I cant stand to look at the damage done on my legs by my psychotic auto-immune-antibodies.� I have a large red mass on my inner right leg that is the size of both my hands.� How disgusting...and painful!!!� And embarrassing to be seen limping around the house with my blue ice pack.� Too painful, too embarrassing to be seen in public with this physical flaw.� I decided to take action and BE causative over my pain and disability by journaling my life exerience...living with LUPUS.� I feel I can have a dialogue with my Higher Self/InnerSelf and keep Loving Me no matter what.� I dont know what the outcome will be for blogging my life experiences, but I welcome the Universe for the opportunities and possibilites to Abundance, flourishing & prospering, Wellness.� Good Night.


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